hello dream job.

in december i am [finally] graduating from college with my bachelors of science degree in fashion design and merchandising. when i was 17 i decided i really want to pursue fashion as a career and ever since then people have been asking me what my "dream job" would be once i graduated. the job description has changed from big name designer to anything in as long as it's in paris, to something in fair trade. recently i started as an intern for a local fair trade clothing company who specializes in partnering with women artisans in india. it's been a lot of work and very challenging for me as it's a new company and needs lots of tender loving care. but i love it. 

recently, someone asked me what i wanted to do when i graduated, what was my dream job. i stopped a minute about to recite the practiced speech and then realized... i am doing it. i want to be doing what i'm doing right now, using my talents, skill and passions to help those who don't have a voice, in this case promoting fair trade, sustainable fashion. 

true, life will take me somewhere new after graduation and i will find another place to work, but for now, i am happily helping to create products that are fashion forward and ethically made. 

i am doing it.

recent jacket from fall 2013 line. l to r, designer's original sketch. what i created based on the sketch including alterations designer wanted, patterning, sewing. the finished product on a model. 

www.symbologyclothing.com

full

life has been busy.
[mmm... i don't like that word. let's try again.]
life has been full.
[much better.]
life has been full of half drunk cups of tea,  piles of homework, medicine in the form of vitamin c and long talks with God. it as been full of learning how to breathe suspended breaths in yoga, reading letters from husband, endless abouts of fabric and thread littering my floor and working as an intern. there have been late nights and very, very early mornings, sketching, tutoring, driving, and desperate phone calls to sisters. life has been full.
it has been good.
it is good.

some kind of love.

a little something i made in cad class last week. so simple and true. i am in love. he is amazing and i am so thankful for everyday with him, even if those days are not physically with him.
living in the moment and grateful for the time we have together.

sometimes

prologue:
she sits with a cup of tea, cut off sweats, her hair clean and loose.
::
i've been processing a lot recently. everything from being a brunette, graduating in a few short semesters to moving across country again, looking for a grown up job and that constant goodbye that must be said.
life is a constant ebb and flow.
sometimes, i ride the waves, cautiously at first but then with eagerness and excitement. i ride and when i'm finished am searching for the next challenge.
but sometimes, i watch the waves from the comfort of my safe little world, a familiar world with all of its corners explored long ago.
sometimes the ebb and flow feels more like a push and shove.
i suppose the point it that it goes on, as will i, as will you.
we continue. we endure.
::
epilogue:
she put away the computer. got her cup of tea and sat on the porch, studying, enjoying the cold.
a car pulled into the drive. she smiled as she watched him turn off the engine, shut the door and walk towards her.

always.

finished with finals. finished with projects. now to pack and then leave the east. hand in hand with my partner in life. ready to start another year together. another chance at life. another chance at regret. we move forward day after day and soon years have been added to our book of life. suddenly we are that new version we were searching for.
onward. upward. and always together.

ce matin...

ce matin, le crepes sont parfait. 

ma tasse du thé es chaud et fort.

 mon mari est avec moi et vie est belle. 

pour maintenant, ce matin ce est notre matin.

currently on repeat

i love this song. it's been on repeat constantly for the last few weeks. today consists of tea, cleaning, getting my life organized and sorted before next week when all hell breaks loose and school starts. it's going to be one crazy fall! i'm so ready and excited for it. but for now i'll listen to sounds from the 70's and enjoy the morning.
-bekah